Getting rid of the boys

At least from my blog.

Not MY boys, but the word boys.

WHY?  

CHANGE.  

 

Sometime this weekend my blog URL will change.

I despise change.  

 But sometimes it is for the good. Like my new haircut?!?!?

Weird angle because I had Mr. Boss take a picture.   I never can remember how it is supposed to be styled the next day!

I bought a URL a two years ago in anticipation of having an online store.  

Much to my dismay, the cost of having a shopping cart website and the costs of design, and finding a reasonable website host was a bit pricey for a basically non-existent store that I didn't have.  

I always seem to dream BIG!

However, I have discovered that I like to do projects for others here and there, but really don't like to make items to keep a shop stocked with goodies.  And managing custom items is easily done through my FB page and email!

I realized I had buttonsandbutterflies.com just hanging in the wind.

It is time to take it off the laundry line and use it.

It is 12 characters shorter, and is more to the point!  

For this blog.

Everything I read claims that this SHOULD be a smooth transition.  I am not changing my blog host, I am just changing the URL.  

All traffic when it goes to boysbuttonsandbutterflies.blogspot.com will be re-directed to the new URL.

You will also see a new blog header in the midst of all of this!

So do me a favor, would you?  

Pretty please...

Can you make sure that I am still here next week?

I am worried that I will be lost back in the vast internet. 

 I don't want my little corner of it to be completely obliterated!

I feel very at home here!

A New Beginning

"Every end is a new beginning"

-Proverb

Today was a tough day. 

 I woke up sad knowing that I was walking into the school clinic that I work at  for the last time.  This also happens to be where my boys go to school.

I REALLY loved my job.  But after much prayer and plain common sense, I realized my family needed me home again.

I won't deny that I will LOVE to be home all day with this Button. 

 However, it is with mixed emotions that I packed up my things this afternoon.

Of course, I can't stay away from that place.   I will be helping out with screenings.  Doing some substituting if needed. It is a second home to me.  I just felt so welcomed and loved by all. I knew that on any given day, I could walk in cranky and walk out smiling.  Feeling like I made a difference in some child's life.

I also think it makes the arrival of Button all the more REAL.  I have had this date in place since New Year's as my "last day" before maternity leave.  Then a few weeks ago, it became my "LAST day" at work.  The date was set because we knew my repeat c-section was the next week and I wanted to work as close as possible to that date.  I would go in to work on Monday and Tuesday if hubby would let me!

  I already know that I am going to start crawling up walls in anticipation in a mere few hours.  Not the "normal" kind, but the kind that is filled with anxiety, worry, sadness, anger, and whatever else emotion decides to bubble to the top!  This "rainbow" baby stuff is a lot harder than I EVER imagined!

So I am going to focus on my "end" being a "beginning".  I will force myself to forsee a future with a child that will actually come home with us.  I will help hubby put the carseat together this weekend.  And even one step furthur...put it in the car.  I will take tags off some of the baby blankets and clothes and actually wash them.

Because Button is my new beginning.





Change

"The key to change...is to let go of fear"

    -Roseanne Cash 

Today I am reflecting on the inordinate amount of change we have gone through and are about to experience.   I realize that Baby Button will change alot of things around here.  The obvious...late night feedings, lack of sleep, and basically...utter chaos.

My life will transition from part-time working mom to a bonafide stay at home mom.

I have been known to not deal well with change.

 

So I am facing change head on. 

 I decided to "change" my blog design a bit.  It is definitely a work in progress, so hang in there with me!  You will notice a few things already, but I have a ways to go!