Monday, January 31, 2011

What Love Really Means


A special lady, Mattie, that I have "met" through the internet after the loss of Jamie has an awesome blog called Beauty Will Rise.  I wish my blog was as AWESOME as hers! She is an amazing person!  I will never forget when we exchanged gifts for Christmas 2009 with some moms that had lost their November babies.  She sent me some very special gifts, all which were perfect.  I wish I had thought to take pictures!

  My heart was very raw at the time, and her gifts helped put a healing ointment on that wound.  I will never forget her baby girl...Shyla Joy.  Without the loss of our precious girls, both due in the month of November that year, we would never have crossed paths.

I was so thrilled when I heard the news that she was carrying her rainbow baby.  I was terrified when she told us the news that little Jakin's heart was not working as well as it should be.  I literally sobbed when I heard the news that his little heart had stopped.  I even posted here that day about her loss and how it impacted my outlook on Baby Button.  I had thought that I could distance myself from pain again.  The loss of Jakin proved to me that it was impossible.  I could love again, and have my heart broken again......

To my point!!! Mattie contacted a few of us momma's to blog about What Love Really Means for the month of February.  If you follow her blog, you will see me on a certain day...*wink, wink*...hmmm....maybe, say Feb 6th?

I am so excited!  I hope I live up to all of these other amazing bloggers out there!!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

What to do...what to do.....

with all of these bundle sets! 

 Yes, this basket is FILLED to the brim with strip bundles and fat quarter bundles. 

I confess, I am quite addicted to collecting them.  I can honestly say that I do use them, but it is very painful for me to break up a bundle. 

Sometimes, I won't even touch them because they are so adorable. 

But the madness needs to stop!!!  But how?

Incredibly, I was shopping for something else.  Story sound familiar?  I was in JoAnn's and they are clearing out our local store to move to a bigger location and become a "Mega JoAnn's"  (I am completely making up the please don't quote!).  I think because the merchandise is dwindling because they are not re-stocking, I was able to spy this (on sale!):

The answer to my prayers!!

  I know that I realistically will not get to any of these right away...but it is nice to know I will have these books around when I do!!

Tomorrow, I will be officially 37 weeks pregnant.  I am starting to feel like it!!!  I can't reach my computer, sewing machine, or frankly, anything else.  I was exhausted trying to string beads on another project that I have been working on for weeks.  I think someone is telling me to slow down.  You think?

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I'm A Mess!!!

Don't remember where I found this photo....but it looks like I feel!!!

If you have ever been to my house....the picture above is a VERY RARE sight. 

And even though I feel like my house is a mess, it still isn't that bad. 

I am 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant today.  I am really not that uncomfortable.  I really can't complain.  However, my brain is quite cluttered like the picture above.

So here's to decluttering that said brain today.  At least I hope.  Mind you, I am saying this at noon.  Yup, I have been lounging/snoozing all morning.

  I have less than 3 weeks to get my act together!!!


Monday, January 24, 2011

3 Albums in 3 Days

I have returned feeling slightly successful from my scrapbook retreat.  It is hard to leave the family, but it is the only way I can realistically get 75-100 scrapbook pages done in an efficient manner.  I used to do all-nighters on my retreats and get close to 150 pages done, but found that the lack of sleep was not worth it by Monday and Tuesday.

I was able to finish my Family album for 2010 and 2009.  Now I only have 11 more years out of the 14 we have as a family....not to mention all the "other" ones I have in the works.

I also updated my Family and Friends album.  It is the album that I put all of the announcements, pictures, letters, and Christmas cards/letters we receive throughout the years.  I am happy to say that I have about 18 years worth of it done. 

 Why do I "waste" my time as my fellow scrappers ask?  Because, otherwise, I clutter up our immediate family album or all these items clutter up baskets and bins throughout the house. 

Now it is time to refocus on sewing for a bit..........HOPING to at least get some scrapbooking done between now and the next retreat in April................

Friday, January 21, 2011

Scrapbook I come!!!!!

See that empty spot?  Just enough room for my clothes, toiletries, and snacks!
a. The act or process of withdrawing, especially from something hazardous, formidable, or unpleasant.
b. The process of going backward or receding from a position or condition gained.
2. A place affording peace, quiet, privacy, or security. See Synonyms at shelter.
a. A period of seclusion, retirement, or solitude.

I am off to spend the weekend scrapbooking!! 
 I have been doing this regularly for at least 5 years now.  It is something I look forward to, even though people don't understand. 

How could I leave my amazing studio? 
I can because the no matter how long I try to lock myself in my room....they will find me!!  That includes the dogs!!!
So, here is concrete evidence that I might actually accomplish some of my hopes!!!!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thank you family and friends!


Heavenly Father, the beauty and dignity of human life was the crowning of your creation. You further ennobled that life when your Son became one with us in his incarnation.
Help us to realize the sacredness of human life and to respect it from the moment of conception until the last moment at death. Give us courage to speak with truth and love and with conviction in defense of life.
 Help us to extend the gentle hand of mercy and forgiveness to those who do not reverence your gift of life.
To all, grant pardon for the times we have failed to be grateful for your precious gift of life or to respect it in others.

I had a totally different intention for today's blog....but after reading the news yesterday and today....I really needed to say that I am so thankful for the support and care I recieved when I decided to carry Jamie.  I am extremely disgusted with the so-called abortion doctor in Pennsylvania that didn't consider those babies as human beings. 

I have never used Jamie Lynn as a platform for the respect life movement, and I probably never will. 
She is mine and I don't share very well (ask my husband...he will concur).

However, at this moment, I am feeling so blessed to carry that darling baby and I am thankful that my husband, family, and friends supported my decision.  I am also grateful for the love and care she was given by my doctor and nurses when she arrived and then shortly left us. 

So thank you to all those who are always there for me.

As for the cross....when I am not so upset....I will definitely share how I made it! 

 So simple!!!!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Bucket Hat

For Button if we have a boy! 

A bit frustrating to make for my first go...would much rather make a toddler/child/adult size.  I had a pattern from another blog, but didn't like how things were turning out.  I ended up winging it!  The brim can be flipped up. 

And if Button is a girl?  I will just add a bow or flower!!!

 I think I wore this tool out!  I call it my best friend.  Have no idea of it's technical term. I cannot remember where I bought it.  And I can't find a replacement if I wanted to.  I love it so much that I spent 30 minutes hunting for it the other day on the internet!  I am going to have to take really good care of it!

Hubby said that if he was ever reincarnated, he would come back as a sewing tool so he could see me more.  I think this one would be his best bet!

And I apologize for the lousy pictures.  This girl has to work when the sun is up...and I was too excited to share!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Never be afraid....

"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic."
Dave Barry

This project is all about firsts! 

Fourteen years ago, I bought patterns to sew my firstborn child outfits.  I bought enough fabric for two to three sleepers.  Hubby's grandmother gifted me her "snap" tool. 

I even packed my sewing machine on a plane to California and we then hauled it all the way to Texas in our little Ford Escort to Officer Basic Camp where I had to spend 11 weeks before getting stationed in Virginia.

I cut the fabric out with the patterns, started sewing it, and then.........nothing.  I never thought to make a baby outfit ever again.

So this week has been about firsts!  This is my first baby item to ever be made by me! Okay...the first baby item that was completed other than a quilt or a blanket!

The other first?  The button fabric/embroidery applique!  I designed it all by myself using my embroidery software.  I am so excited it to try my hand at some more elaborate designs now.

But can I tell you something that I think is funny?
Hubby had no idea that the applique was a button.  I started getting nervous.  I asked the boys what they thought.

All three said in unison, "Ah mom, you made a bib with a huge button!  That is awesome for the baby!".

So worries!

and yes...all from scrap fabric I had.  I am seriously making a dent in my fabric stash!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Button's first outfit

 Is Button a Girl?   

Not sure!

I finally found two beautiful outfits the other day at the sweet boutique at the hospital/doctor' office.  If you remember, I couldn't find ANYTHING nuetral.

So I bought this off-white sleeper with the tiniest hand embroidery of a bear with beige/brown/green.

Go figure...When I brought it home, I felt like it needed "something".

I decided to make a girl accessory.  A headband with a flower and button accent.  And yes, I used fabric scraps again!
 I don't like the yellow color of the headband that is on it's way to being fixed as you read.  I also might make a wee bit smaller flower....we will see!

Hoping to show you the "boy" accessory I am working on today!  If not....maybe by the end of the week!

Sunday, January 16, 2011


No, not rainbows.  Just fabric in rainbow order! 
I have realized that in the blogging world, there are moments when you either:

  •  Can't come up with a good project.
  • Forgot to take a picture of a great project.
  • Have nothing to say
  • The weather doesn't cooperate for a good picture of a great project
  • Or your kid gets sick and you can't get anywhere near a computer.
In today's case, I realized that I hadn't even checked emails in three days.  My youngest is sick...once again.  Luckily, this time his strep test came postive.  If it hadn't, I might have had a mental breakdown at the urgent care clinic.  He is doing well and running around today!  Thank you modern medicine!

And I might have a bit of time to do something today.  But the Bear v. Seahawk game is still taking priority....GO BEARS!!  

So I am glad that I took pictures a while back for just such days!  I thought I'd show you the simple plastic drawers that hold my "scrap" fabrics.  I stole the color label idea from a scrapbooking friend.  Just print the words using a word document and change the font color to match the name.  I cut them and then used clear packing tape over the label to stick to the plastic.  Too simple, right!

I  can report that we actually pulled down the cradle, crib, highchair, changing table, and pack and play from the attic during halftime.  A bit dusty and rough around the ages...but I think they will work! 

As each item came down....not sugarplums, but ideas danced through my head.  It is starting to get a little exciting.  Still very nervous that Button won't get to use them, but excited that I just might get to decorate a nursery in the near future!!! 

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Butterfly Kisses

Jamie's Quilt. 

 When she was born, we were enthralled with the perfection of her feet.   We could not keep our hands off of them.   We used her quilt for some of her NILMDTS photos.  She looked just precious on that quilt.  A few months later, I told hubby that I was going to embroider her name and her footprints on her quilt.  I was nervous, but he thought it was a good idea. 

 I chose brown to go with the quilt, but now wish I had gone with either a bolder larger font or a different color.  The background is so busy. 
But doesn't matter....I love it.

So this leads to my charity:


I have finally perfected the digitizing and embroidery process.

Any baby loss momma that has a blanket or quilt that they would like to have their baby's name and footprints or handprints on....please contact me.
Yes....the footprints are the EXACT size of her actual footprints that were done at the hospital.  All I need is a scanned copy of your baby's or babies' footprints/handprints and the measurement (length and width) so that I can digitize them for my embroidery machine.
This is all free of charge.  I have already received a bit of funding to get this off the ground!
If you are currently carrying a baby with a very poor or fatal diagnosis and would like your baby's name on their blanket for their birth day, I can also help you out.  I have done a few already....and one of them actually defied his odds!  He is quite the healthy infant.  Boy, were those doctors wrong!

 If you are interested please fill out this FORM HERE or contact me on my FB page!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

This is how I feel!

I was actually saving this picture for a rainy day.  I was going to title it:  The Kid Can Sleep Anywhere!

Except, this is how tired I am today. I guess it is sort of my rainy day?

 Last night, hubby was rear-ended.  He is fine, but his car has quite the gash.

Today, I walked out to the parking lot and found out that someone hit my 3 week old car....and didn't leave a note.  My bumper now matches hubby's!

After having an awesome OB appt, running some errands, picking up my permanent license plates, getting an estimate from the body shop, work, homework, and tennis lessons.   I had to come home and do my "Parent Statement" for my oldest's high school applications to the local Catholic schools. 

The picture EXACTLY how I feel.

So I hope that I can get some energy to do some fun things tomorrow.
  I REALLY need it!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Going Neutral

Going neutral is the hardest thing!  I went shopping this afternoon for Button.  The plan was to buy some neutral clothing for his/her first few days.  Then we plan to go shopping for things after the baby comes home. 

Why is this a problem?


You either can buy girl stuff or boy stuff.  Does no one get surprised anymore!?!?!?

Why the quilt above?  I just wanted to resurrect the quilt I had made Jamie before she was born to show what I consider neutral.  Actually, I bought this material the day after her ultrasound when we weren't sure what was going on. All we knew was that "all was well,except....." her bones were not measuring correctly. 

We were encouraged to do an amniocentesis because they felt that it was "bad".  In order to make decisions, we needed more information.  We found out all of this on a Wednesday.  They scheduled my amniocentesis for Friday morning (I knew things weren't right since they wanted it done so quickly).  That Thursday, I did what any sewer/crafter does when they are anxious.  Go shopping for STUFF!

The boys helped me pick out this quilt kit amongst all the girl/boy things.  It was as neutral as we could get.   Looking back now, it doesn't look very neutral!

So today, I walked out of Target with two packs of white onesies, white socks, and one set of brown and white onesies/pants.  I also had one set of receiving blankets and an outfit in pink. One set of receiving blankets and outfit in blue.  The big brothers' insisted.  That is all I could find!  I hope I can return whatever doesn't work! 

As for the plain white things....time to break out the embroidery machine. Don't you think?

And Jamie's quilt?  This is the before.  I will post what I did with her quilt later this week!

I am such a tease, aren't I?

Sunday, January 9, 2011

My First Customer

Okay..not my first, but he saw me making a list of my first few customers...and immediately put his order in last night.

Not only did he put an order in, he selected one of his t-shirts and scrummaged through my scrap fabric drawers.

It is funny, because I wanted to do a few onsies with applique ties and bowties.  I have seen quite a few ladies do it on their blogs. 

But honestly, he had only seen a screenprinted shirt like this at Target and knew that I could do it...that sassy little thing!

My technique definitely needs some work, but all that matters is that he likes it though! 

Nothing like good customer service!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

An Early Valentine's Gift

FOR ME!!!!

Spruced up my red maternity shirt.  I rarely do something for myself....seriously.

  I decided I was going to celebrate the coming of February with this really "sweet" cupcake embroidery applique.  Valentine's and Button are due to arrive the same week!

I am having so much fun with my embroidery machine lately.  We have had a bit of a love/hate relationship since I acquired her, but my Baby Lock Emore is finally living up to it's name!  

 And, yes, my sewing machines are women.  They are finicky, cranky, moody........but always reliable!

I have two more specific Valentine's appliques.  I think I am going to showcase them on an throw pillow cover and maybe hand/dishtowel. 

We'll have to see....enough procraftination....back to the boys' bedroom window treatments!

Friday, January 7, 2011


Emergency, you say? Yes, it is!  Every school nurse has to tote along her mints, water, bandaids, and tissues!

I finally finished the clinic's emergency bag.  I am happy with the fact that it is all recycled materials.

It was print from the old clinic window treatment.  The red from a valance we used to have in our garage (see the tabs?) and the denim leftover from when I did the boys' room 8 years ago!

A double applique!  So much fun.  The school plaid for the cross and the red heart from that leftover red fabric!
It was a lot of fun to make.  It has 8 pockets on the outside and 6 on the inside.  What more could a nurse need?

  I just wish I had made my outside pockets just a little shorter and the handles just a little longer.

But, hey!  Not every project that I do has to be perfect!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

If You Believe

One of the MANY pictures I get sent from other babyloss mommas.....for her Name Gallery!

If You Believe
Mary Thompson
(dedicated to Lori and Frank Walsh, and baby Joseph)

He will guide you on your way-if you believe.
Roll the clouds of doubt away-if you believe.
God will hold you in His arms, give you hope when hope is gone.
(He will give you all you need-if you believe.)

He will calm you deepest fears-if you believe.
And dry up all your tears-if you believe.
God will take your broken heart,
In His hands the healing starts,
Then His peace you will receive-if you believe.

For God will never leave your side.
That’s a promise He provides.
He will see you through everything you do-
with His love.

You will feel Him call your name- if you believe.
And you’ll never be the same-if you believe.
God will fill your very soul with the grace
to make you whole.
And His love will set you free-if you believe.

A song written by a beautiful woman.
  For the past 4 years, we have gotten up Christmas morning and gone to Mass as soon as the gifts are open.  We try to make the Mass that we think we "know" that Mary and her family sing.  Just four of them and a guitar.  Every year, I cry.

But last year, I cried even harder.  I don't know how much Mary knows how much it meant to us for her to sing at Jamie Lynn's funeral.  It was comforting to know that she had been there for her own family member that went through a similar experience.  It is a burden and a blessing to carry a child knowing that your first Hello will also be your Goodbye. 

I was driving home today from work and this song (written above) came into my head.
I confess, I was tired.  I was tired of everyone asking if I was just ready to have this baby.
I answered, truthfully...honestly...I am great!  I am not uncomfortable at all.

  What I didn't say?  Button can stay in there as long as he/she needs. 
I just want Button to be matter what it takes.

I need to remember that I need to "believe"
....because that is all that counts in the end.

Sprucing up my workplace

Instead of going back to work today, I had to stay home and play nurse to one of the boys. 

However, it did give me some time to work on some projects. 

We needed some items for the clinic I work at.   

The blue BASKET COZIE:   When we have any emergency evacuation, we have to tote all of the students emergency cards.  They are really unwieldy in the basket that we keep them in.  I decided to make what I guess you could call is a Basket Cozie.  The plastic basket slips right inside and has handles so we can sling it on our shoulders!  I used blue denim for the outside and the nursing fabric for the liner.  I embellished it with a cross applique (using scraps from our uniform plaid) and embroidery font with my Baby Lock!

The white BASKET BED:  I also used the extra material to make some little quilted "beds" for our thermometer and otoscope.  Have to protect our expensive investments!  I just quilted a small rectangle and made a liner for the little baskets.

The best part of these projects...they are all from leftover fabric.  The Nurse/Clinic print is from the old window treatment we had up.  I just washed it and am cutting away!

Hoping to finish our clinic emergency bag and window treatment sooner than later. You can see the fabric is already cut out on my work island.    I even have an idea for wall art that is made of fabric, but I think I will frame it with glass to keep the germs from collecting on it.

But for now, this tired momma/nurse need to get some zzzz's to take care of all the little patients that might arrive in our clinic the first day back!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Getting A New Start

"to try again" the boys' room.  A redesign is what I am talking about!

"The determination to try again is without a doubt the greatest factor for success in the lives of all whose achievements are noteworthy." quote from Vintage Notions

 I am so excited about how well it is already looking!!  I still am working on their window treatments, making magnets for their magnet boards, and reorganizing their knick-knacks and books!  However, laundry had to be finished before going back to work!

First off....I must tell you about their "old room".   They had their "look" for about 8 years now.  The two oldest shared it at our old house.   I did make their denim duvets, throw pillows, and did various "crafty" things to make a Ship/Boat theme way back when.  However, when the two little ones bunked up together in our new house three years ago, they immediately started campaigning for a new "look". 

Now that I am looking at the pictures, I have to agree, it was definitely time for a change.  Very tired and boring!


After starting to pick out fabrics, paints, and accessories in Thanksgiving, we worked on it here and there during the month of December.  We didn't really make much progress, until this Christmas Break! 

I have to tell you, another reason why I avoided "redoing" their room is that they literally wanted to paint a line down the center and paint their room a variety of colors and have two separate themes.   Luckily, early this Fall, I found a comforter set at Target that made me smile.  ALL of the colors that they each wanted and there was really no noticeable theme....just boys stuff!

So here is our AFTER!

First, hubby painted the room gray (from the comforter).  Then we twisted his arm and he painted the green stripe near the top of the room (it is a REALLY tall ceiling).

While Hubby was painting, I worked on the boys' bedding first.  They chose their respective colored (blue and green) fleece for blankets and helped me shop for ALL of the fabric!   It was so much fun and I think they did a fantastic job on their choices!  The green pillow is made of minky, and all the others are from fat or flat quarters! 

Hubby then built these magnetic boards.  Normally, this is something I would do myself, but with my large weight gain in just the frontal area...I am terribly off balance and am very klutzy right now.  So no power tools for me right now!  We had the metal sheeting from a another project that I never got to, and never will!  He used door casing and leftover plywood to make the frame.

And while he worked on that...I finally made a cushion for the window seat.  We found the cool orange and green pillows at Home Goods for a really good price.   The window cushion is made from a navy pre-quilted material, foam, and some batting.  I can honestly say that a ton of piping had to be made and sewn for the edges.  I don't mind doing home dec projects, but realize this would not be something I would want to do on a regular basis for others!

Here is a quilted pillow case sham I made for the window seat.  I embroidered the different symbols (that I found in their comforters).  I found clip art images and digitized them.  I decided to do "fading" quilting lines so that they were broad starting from the right and getting tighter to the left.  I think I still need to work on that technique!

And while I sat at my sewing machine, dear hubby painted the bookcase, shelves, and another picture frame for me.  We joked that at our "next" house, we should build it with my Studio and his workshop together so that we could actually talk while working!

This isn't the greatest picture, but I wanted to show off the amateur mat job by me and the paint job by hubby.  It is a perfect example of how you can repurpose an old frame you have sitting around..or if you are like me, a closet full of old frames and decorations.  I also want to reiterate that all the fabrics, colors, posters, lamps, and knick-knacks were chosen by a 11 and 8 year old.  I am so proud of them!

And last but not least, here are their special pillows.  They each chose their favorite color and I made a monogrammed/embroidered pillow for them.  They were supposed to go on the window seat, but they wanted them on their beds.  Just a little individuality when two guys have to share a room!  I tried out my new applique fonts that I purchased the other day.  Then I played with layering names...I have decided that I like when the name is separate or if I do overlap, the color of the embroidered name needs to be a very distinct different color!

So hopefully, I will get their window treatments done sooner and later....and I promise...their shelves, bookcase will be much more organized!!!!

Finished window treatments HERE!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Hello 2011!! Hopes...not goals!

The New Year brings resolutions....but I have never liked that.

The New Year brings goals....I have always liked them, but don't like the feeling when I don't meet them.

So I am going to call these, my hopes!

  • Internet hopes:  I hope that I get my website whipped into shape quickly....preferably before the arrival of Baby Button.  I hope that I can use the Internet to connect with more crafter/sewers so I can improve my blog and website. 

  • Grief hopes:  I hope that all the mommas that are lost and confused when faced with a poor or fatal prognosis, find the great group of women I have "met" on my online support group.  I hope they find this blog and see that their lives can "go on"...but with a new meaning. 

  • Sewing:  I am hoping that I haven't bitten off more than I can chew!!!  I hope that I can make customers happy, balance my own family's sewing needs, and still find a bit of time to do some charity work!  I hope that my repertoire really does expand to more than housewares and quilting.  Kid/baby I come! 

  • Baby Button:  I hope he/she arrives safe and sound.  It is all that matters.  After that...I hope that I can rein in my worries and be "normal" mom instead of crazy anxiety ridden mom!  And I hope Button keeps inspiring me to make unique things for others!

  • Embroidery:  I hope I keep learning more about embroidery and my own machine.  Maybe a more commercial machine in the future....but that might have to be a hope for 2012 or 2013!!

  • Quilting:  I hope I finish the pieced quilt top I already have.   I hope I make more!!  I hope to have a quilt for my own home for each season to use/and or display in our family room.  I hope that I get a Quilting longarm machine.  My machine just does not accommodate large quilts as well as I like.  I hope we find room for it!  I also hope that I can try my hand at a t-shirt quilt.  Then I can do so for others.  I also hope that I finish a certain family's memory quilt.  Their dear father's shirts and items are safely tucked in a bin in my closet.  No...I don't hope, I WILL get this done by the end of the year!

  • Crafting:  I hope I remember to take photos all year of the different things I have done this year so I can share them with my blogging/online craft friends!  I hope I get all of the Christmas ideas that I never got to are all done before it arrives again next year!

  • Scrapbooking:  I hope I finish my 2010 Family Album.  That would make 2 whole years complete (out of the 14 we have been married *insert grimace face*).  I hope I can also complete 2009 and stay on track for 2012!  Other albums I'd like to finish?  Christmas album, CTT mama pages, Josh's School Album, Disney Trips Album, update the other two school albums....and attack at least one of the two little guys' baby books.

  • Family: Last on this list...but certainly not least.  I hope that I can meet every (or at least most) needs they have.  I hope that I always remember to put them first, even if I do have a long list of Hopes.  But, I think I already know that because I am calling them hopes...not goals. 

So here's to hoping!!!!!!


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