My little button. One of the inspirations of starting this blog. My Jamie is my butterfly because she flew away. This beautiful baby on its way....please God have this one come home with me in my arms.....we have named Button.
The boys and Jamie's real names begin with J's and ironically, their "pet" names from me start with B's. Why do I have pet names? I am one of those mommies that don't know if I am going to have a boy or a girl. I have kept the gender/sex reveal a surprise for myself and everyone we know until they arrive five times now. Why? Because there aren't many REAL surprises in life anymore. Even Christmas isn't the same as an adult!!! The real reason I don't find out? I have learned from my L&D nursing days that it is never a guarantee that these precious packages come home with us. Does it matter if they are a boy or girl? No, it only matters that they arrive safe and sound.
My Bunny helped me pick out this little one's nickname. I like Button, because I loooove buttons. They represent so much to me! I use them when I sew. I use them when scrapbooking, and I have even made some jewelry pieces with Buttons. I also like the fact that this baby has "fastened" his/herself into my life. This baby means so much, in so many ways.
Button has brought out a new view for me. That there is joy out of pain. There is hope out of agony. There is happiness beyond grief. This child is a not our Jamie, but this child might never have been here if I hadn't lost my Jamie.
So I bought (sigh....not made) a blanket for our button. The only purchase I have made, and probably the only one I will make before Button arrives. I decided to embroider "Cute as a Button" on it in nuetral colors. The boys and hubby loved it. I think hubby is a little jealous that I bought it on my own, so I think I will make it up to him and have him go shopping with me for baby's first outfit. So I guess there is a little shopping in our future...but not much. I can't do a whole nursery without fear that it might be empty when I come home in a few months.